My Lyme Today

Most days I don’t complain about how I feel. It serves no real purpose and changes nothing in my circumstance. Some days though, I just need to vent. Today is that day.

You know, I wish I could say that each day is different lately, but that wouldn’t be true. For over a week now, my wrists have caused constant pain, and it shows no sign of stopping. In fact, there are new knots developing in the joints of my already disfigured wrists.

Some of my fingers are already showing disfigurement and sometimes get stuck in an extended position that causes physical pain to adjust. The sad thing is that, as bad as my fingers are already, my toes are much worse. Most of them are drawn and knotted making any attempt at walking very painful. That pain is made worse by the pain and swelling in my knees, especially the right one for some reason.

To those ailments, I can add joint pain in my right shoulder (sometimes it just pops and shoots pain up my neck and down my arm), my left jaw, and sometimes my neck. There is spinal damage in my lower back, I have migraines, there are knots on top of the bones in my legs that run from my knee to my ankle. My left foot is permanently drawn to the inside and I am so tired I feel like I could sleep for hours. My memory is terrible now, and sometimes I can’t think of the right word to the point that I get frustrated and angry.

I have been getting treatments since the end of 2009. I am better than I was but nowhere near better. I likely have some damage to my body that will never go away, so some days (like today) I have to indulge my “poor me” tendencies. I am only human.

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Author: KarenM

Advocate for animal rights, individual rights, and medical issues such as #Lyme disease, #cancer and #diabetes. Reader Reviews and News I also write about television, music, holidays and anything else that grabs me while I'm on my soapbox

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